BEING SARAH.......

I have to face this problem which is a very real one. I know this is disgusting/hideous/ugly......but this is what i do. I have picked my face so much that it's really REALLY sore. I don't want to be judged...because i feel bad enough as it is.... This is me. I'm sorry if it makes you feel sick....but i want to be honest. My skin is discoloured/scarred/wrinkly/obviously i have NO make-up on. My eyes look dark and sunken, but i think this will give you an idea of why i hate myself so much... and this doesn't even start on the rest of my fucked up body. BEFORE AFTER - Thank God for Vichy Dermablend and Bare Minerals foundation...

Been shopping for the holiday and i purchased a bikini (extra padding in the bra area) and shorts . I did try to get a different patterned one, but they either didn't have my top size or didn't have a size 8 shorts. So not my first choice, but there was nothing else i could get, and we're going in a week, this was my last shopping chance. WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING? No. 1 - Even with padding there is still a massive gap between my non-existent tits and the material. No. 2 - SCARS ON SHOW! No. 3 - Belly out. No. 4 - Fucking disgusting arse cheeks hanging out. No. 5 - Cellulite for all to see. N0 6 - Giant veins on my legs extremely visible. Am i completely fucking insane? I look a hideous mess. In fact, i am thinking i should be wearing scuba gear. I am mortified at the state of my ugly body. Cry me a river Sarah, which is just what i am doing.