BEING SARAH.......

Hi people.. I can still see that i am being viewed, which is cool... Firstly i want to say that there was a post on here dated the 20th of September.. I have NO idea how it got on my blog as i have not been on here for weeks.  The blog was about someone from a long time ago.. i really honestly don't know how it came to be.. so i apologise for that... Anyway... Things are going well. I have started walking out on my own again. I have been in TWO media publications recently.  Pick me up magazine and my local newspaper. I am now 'dating' again.  A lovely bloke - who lives TWO minutes away... My puppy was mated yesterday, so hopefully we'll have puppies soon. I'm feeling really well.. Yeah. So that's it in a nutshell..... ;)

..how you are relishing in my depression and illness. You too were sick once, how would you have felt if someone was telling you that you deserved it because you were such a bad person? I am NOT a bad person. I am a fucking good person for all the shit i put up with. I am a VERY GOOD mother, i actually spend time with my son, doing things with him, being THERE for him, i don't ship him out to people because i am bored and want to please myself. I do EVERYTHING for my husband and with everything we've been through i love him more than i could ever imagined, i help my family out whenever i am asked and i've been the best friend possible, so that makes me a bad person? No. We are TWO people (yeah, just us involved in this) - who fell out. Fuck me, the amount of people you've fallen out with over the years i've known you, did that make you deservent of being agoraphobic? Of course it didn't. I just pray to God that you never relapse, because mental illness only ha...

HELLO...  I HAVE DECIDED TO NO LONGER BLOG HERE.  I HAVE BEEN RUBBISH OVER THE LAST FEW MONTHS ANYWAY AND TO BE HONEST, I PREFER VLOGGING, SO THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO BE DOING.  I WILL PROBABLY POST THE VIDS HERE... BUT NOT WRITE. MY LIFE HAS TOTALLY CHANGED OVER THE LAST FEW MONTHS, I HAVE TOTALLY CHANGED TOO.  I LOVE THE PERSON I AM NOW... I AM HAPPY 99% OF THE TIME.. I DON'T HAVE ANY STRESS, I DON'T WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING.. I AM CHILLED AND HAPPY...  LIFE IS FANTASTIC AND I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY... SO YEAH... THAT'S ALL FOR NOW, OR UNTIL THE NEXT VLOG... SARAH X

...Since i wrote a blog about anything of interest.. Life is AMAZING right now.. I am SO happy. Depression has gone completely, i am no longer sad/down/miserable, i am loving everything. My stupid ex is STILL hanging around. EVERY SUNDAY (his full day of drinking day) i will get "I LOVE YOU" texts... NOT INTERESTED. We've been back together THREE times since we split in May. The last time we got back together he was drinking out of a gatorade bottle.. Turns out, the 'Gatorade' was in fact VODKA!!!! He's an alcoholic, i know that, and alcoholics are sneaky.. But i don't need that in my life. So yeah.. BYE BYE! I have also just done another article about Agoraphobia, this time for "Pick me up" magazine which will be out in Issue 37, i think September 6th - or thereabouts... Erm.. Dating is okay! I've met a couple of really nice fellas... i am just enjoying meeting people and having a laugh and occasionally getting pissed.. It'...

Today, i went to a charity football match where Mark Wright was playing - and yes, at 37 i queued and had my photo taken!!! I am not in the least bit ashamed, he's fucking hot!