BEING SARAH.......

I am not just in a little bit of pain, i am in AGONY and have been for weeks/months and due to my own stupidity i am refusing to go to the doctors.  Why?  Since the 'breakdown' and all the nonsense that brought with it, i am afraid that i will be looked at in the same way i was looked at back then, like i am nuts and that it's 'ALL IN MY HEAD' when i know 100% its not.  I sleep on an orthopedic pillow which to be fair, does nothing to elevate the pain what-so-ever... Last night for example, my back, neck, shoulders, elbows  wrists, hips and knees hurt, not just a little bit, a lot and right now, i am kind of half sitting with the pillow around my back and shoulders and the pain in my neck is unbelievable.  Every time i try and move my head to look down, the pain in my spine is something else... something quite special in fact. So yeah.. all i wanted to do is have a whinge... and now i feel like i have purged my moaniness.... :)

Going from being an avid blogger to barely ever writing anything is weird.  It's not that i don't have anything to talk about, its more to do with the fact i cannot be arsed. So it's Friday, the 15th March.. and a good day to talk i feel... PUPPIES... Both the dogs i was selling have gone.   Bindi went about 3/4 weeks ago and Brian went last Wednesday, it was very sad both times.. I do still have little Bear, who isn't so little any more... He's a giant and almost as big as Bluebell.. He is a gorgeous bundle of fluffy fun and i adore him.   This wast the last picture of Brian.... He was mahooosive....and my little Bear there at the back! My ex has been flitting in and out of my life, much to everyones disgust.  He comes in, hes lovely and says all the right things, then i find out he's been lying to me massively and when i question him on the lies i get called a 'psycho stalker' - which of course i am not.. but he should think about who he tal...

So, puppies are 8 weeks old today - and i still have them all.  Brilliant.  I am the owner of 4 Lhasa Apsos... Not quite sure how this is going to work out, but i guess it will have to.  I love them all anyway, so it's not a chore, it's a very lovely pleasure... Apart from the constant pee and poo but i guess it comes with the territory... I'm on guard every second, armed with antibacterial and kitchen roll. It's been snowing ALL day today and still i reckon we have no more than 2 inches.  It's quite a let down, i really thought (and according to all the weather reports) we were going to be 'snowed in'.... Hasn't happened. (I am loving Pinterest at the moment, just saying).

RIP BARRY CONNICK JUNIOR - 26/11/12 - 3/1/12 You were a blessing to Bluebells litter....You'll be missed little wee man. Love you always....................................

Happy Christmas everyone.  Hope you all had a fab day and are looking forward to an AMAZING 2013.  I know i am....  The babies are now 4 weeks and 4 days old.  They are all walking and are starting to be weaned... They are right little characters and all very different indeed.  Brian is the big boisterous one... Likes to attack.  Bindi is a sweet little thing, she is very affectionate.  Bear and Barry, are quite quiet, however Bear is become more inquisitive, whereas Barry is the little one who is picked on rather a lot... Bless him.  He seems a bit clueless. He sits there with his tail wagging for no apparent reason, such a treasure.. I love them all and it's going to be SO hard to part with them.... Ugh!  Not long now :( NYE is going to be lonely... But i guess i will survive... I always do.... That's all for now... ..and maybe that's all for 2012....  Thanks for reading, if anyone still does..... Sa...

Yes,  and i can use that word... because our town, today, with no more than ONE inch of snow at the most, was complete gridlock!  I was meant to go and see my friend today and get a few last Christmas presents and it took us an hour to go 3 miles.... Eventually we turned round.  Couldn't be arsed to sit in queues, so we went back into town, did shopping and gave the journey a second go... We were doing fine, then MORE queues.  All in all it took us nearly 2 1/2 hours a journey that normally takes 20 minutes.  ONE INCH OF SNOW!!!!!................. I know this is going to get boring... but its never going to get boring for me... ... 9 day old puppies.... They are already changing colour... They are SO gorgeous.. How on earth am i going to get rid of them!?... It's going to break my heart :( On the upside, my little girl is back to getting her cuddles.. Not been able to do this for weeks.... Lovely puppy! That's all..

Took this gorgeous little picture very very early this morning.  I love the way that (Little Brown) Bear has his arm around his brother... so cute, so precious! So.. I had another night of no sleep!  Oh dear God, i need sleep now, i am fricking exhausted and becoming extremely grumpy.  Understandable really.... However, i can't sleep, i have a house to clean and it won't clean itself!!!! That's all ;)