Dilemma...
I don't know what to do... So confused with it all. I have just called the boyfriend after not speaking to him since 8 this morning (he's off sick) to see if he was okay and i got ANOTHER mouthful... WTF?? I simply cannot do this any more. I'm fed up, the only thing is that he's helped me so much with getting out, if i end the relationship, i'll be back to square one, on my own with no one. *Le Sigh*
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Everything is a choice. There is no can't! Having panic attacks for 13+ years...you know by now that panic attacks won't hurt you or kill you. And any embarrassment you've been afraid of has already happened. So...what do you have to lose? Nothing! But you have sooo much to gain. And I am very happy to see that you're doing so well :)
You're right, i know you are. Can't is a shitty word that has been a BIG part of my life. But clearly, I CAN!
Anxiety/panic/whatever is horrible and it feels nasty, but like you said, i've been there and had it a million times before, i know what it feels like, 'sometimes' it throws in a new symptom to scare me some more, but generally the pattern is the same.
I CAN do whatever i want to do....with fear or without, it's whether i really want to.
What i have done, since splitting up with the ex is more than i could have ever imagined. My mother was my safe person, no one else, and i never expected to be able to trust someone like i do her, but i have and it feels amazing to have a bit more of a life without having mum by my side all the time.
Thanks for your comment.
Sarah.
have a fab week hunny xx♥xx