It's a pain... No really... it IS!
I am not just in a little bit of pain, i am in AGONY and have been for weeks/months and due to my own stupidity i am refusing to go to the doctors. Why? Since the 'breakdown' and all the nonsense that brought with it, i am afraid that i will be looked at in the same way i was looked at back then, like i am nuts and that it's 'ALL IN MY HEAD' when i know 100% its not. I sleep on an orthopedic pillow which to be fair, does nothing to elevate the pain what-so-ever... Last night for example, my back, neck, shoulders, elbows wrists, hips and knees hurt, not just a little bit, a lot and right now, i am kind of half sitting with the pillow around my back and shoulders and the pain in my neck is unbelievable. Every time i try and move my head to look down, the pain in my spine is something else... something quite special in fact. So yeah.. all i wanted to do is have a whinge... and now i feel like i have purged my moaniness.... :)