BEING SARAH.......

I need ANOTHER operation. WTF !? I've got to have a Laparoscopy and hysteroscopy to get to the bottom of my "lady issues". I'm fucking pissed off. REALLY REALLY REALLY pissed off. Oh yeah, as i sat there the consultant says "There is a change of puncturing your bowel because you're slim". ROCK ON! Get me in that theater - NOW. I've had enough now.

People with Chiari Malformations may experience no symptoms. When symptoms are present, they usually do not appear until adolescence or early adulthood, but can occasionally be seen in young children. The most common Chiari symptoms include: Severe Headache and Neck Pain Pain at the back of the head that is aggrivated by coughing, sneezing, straining etc. Dizziness Vertigo Disequilibrium Visual disturbances Ringing in the ears Difficulty swallowing Heart palpitations Sleep apnea Muscle weakness Impaired fine motor skills Chronic fatigue Painful tingling of the hands and feet ("Pins & Needles") Other Chiari symptoms may include: Nystagmus Memory loss Restricted movement Intolerance to bright light / difficulty adjusting to light change Difficulty walking on uneven ground / feeling ground under feet Difficulty driving Difficulty negotiating steps Pressure / pain behind the eyes (soreness in the eyeballs) Back pain Neck spasms Insomnia Swaying Pain when changing position Tin...

I KNEW good things weren't going to last. I've been diagnosed with Cerebellar Tonsils/Chiari Malformation Type 1 . There's not really much else to say.

BIG NEWS COMING. No i am not pregnant, nor getting married (obviously).

....So, we're on the way to the zoo this morning at 9.30. We get 3/4 of the way there and we breakdown... ...on a busy roundabout! Can you believe it? Apparently it's the cam belt which i understand is a very big deal especially if it's fucked up the engine, you're look at least £1000 to fix it. Worst bit is, he hasn't even paid for the car yet :( I'm so upset for him and we're meant to be going camping next weekend, so unless some miracle happens, it doesn't look like we'll be able to go. BAD TIMES.

What's happened to Nikki from http://agoraphobiaandme.blogspot.com/ (Health anxiety and me).

Commitment phobic men may display SOME or MANY of the following behaviours: 1. They usually have a history of short relationships and they may never have been married - there is often an excuse that they haven’t met the right woman, or they justify their history by saying they still have plenty of time to settle down as they can have children at any age. A favourite line is "someday". 2. If they have been married it is likely to have been for a short time, or, if they have been in a long term relationship or marriage, they will usually have a history of infidelity. 3. They want a relationship but they also want freedom and space so they are often attracted to long distance relationships and busy independent women. 4. They are fast to move in on a woman they are attracted to, and they pursue ardently until they win the woman over. 5. They are very charming. They say and do all the right things and they can be very romantic. They are very good salesmen to get their own needs m...