Feeling down in the dumps.

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This time it's going on for ages. Putting off the boyfriend coming round, feeling ugly, fat, useless....(YOU KNOW THE DRILL).

There is nothing that is pulling me out of this one.
Spending another night alone. The boy is with his dad, and like i said, i didn't want to see the boyfriend because it's not fair on him when i'm feeling this low...

I wish i felt better.

Comments

lotte said…
((((huggles hun)))) I wish I could say something to make you feel better.....BUT yep I know the drill and when you feel like that not much can change your thought process only yourself!

But YOU ARE NOT ugly, fat or useless.....far from it....you are beautiful, funny, skinny, gorgeous, and totally top of the pops :)

Please be kind to yourself and dont be so hard on yourself

Love you x x x
18/06/2011, 20:02
Sarah♥ said…
My dear Charlotte...

You're the sweetest person i've *met* in years. You say the nicest things, and i know you mean them.

You are totally fabulous and i love you too.

Thank you so much for your support.... you mean the world to me, and as you already know, ALWAYS here for you..
18/06/2011, 21:24
vinny said…
yes when we want to be alone i know the feeling but lotte is right ur such a beautiful person inside and out and i don't think ur fella would mind,he may even cheer you up out of this rut,you need a good old laugh and to get out for a nice long walk or something,give him a ring and see if you can do something tomorrow hun as long as the weather is ok,remember he loves you for you so does not care what you look like on a down day etc but u always look pretty to me xxxxxx
18/06/2011, 22:57
Sarah♥ said…
Vinny..

I hate being a burden and i refuse to put my woes onto him, especially since he works so hard, the last thing he needs is me whinging.

x
19/06/2011, 22:51
vinny said…
oh i can never imagine you being a burden to anyone ur too nice and i think men already know that women moan a lot ha ha thats what we do,i think my fella just blocks it out half the time.
He did not come around on ur anniversary uve gotta remember so he's not an angel either,give yourself a break hun and stop blaming yourself,your a really nice person sarah and i wish i could hypnotise you and get that into your head hun xxx♥xxx
love always
19/06/2011, 23:28
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