BEING SARAH.......

So, i am feeling fed up today. I am NOT accepting what is going on with me is purely anxiety. I won't and why should i? The buzzing and vibrating is doing my frigging head in, literally. I woke up this morning (as i do every morning) with horrible internal vibrations, and even worse in my head. My whole head was just buzzing....it's quite scary, but i don't know if its the medication or not, but i am not obsessing over it, i am just 'dealing' with it, but i am not going to risk my health for the fear that the doctors will think i am crazy. My leg/foot is constant too.... So, i took 2 x 2mg diazepam, 'cause that'd get rid of any anxiety that i have.... and guess what, it did NOTHING!!!! My face still feels weird and my lips still feel like they are burning... Whatever............... :(

...Off to the Colpscopy clinic for my 6 monthly check-up............ Whoop whoop!!!!!!!!!!

Wowzers, i am back to being 'me' (that's me BEFORE the depression set in and before i went NUTSO.....). I am feeling so much better. I'm still agoraphobic/panicky/anxious (yawn) but i am feeling more normal which i think is fan-tas-tic after only 11 days. High 5 to Cipralex!!!!

...Windows are all open, letting the beautiful 'spring' breeze through my house... IF only it wasn't so wet out, i'm guessing from rain in the night, i would be in the garden right now doing more stuff... It honestly is a 'no coat needed' day.

Sitting in the Honda garage waiting for my mothers car to be serviced. Only been here an hour, got another hour left..... So bored! Feel like crap today. Jaw is hurting like hell on the right side.... My tongue still feels odd and I'm still fucking buzzing, ALL OVER!!! I hate this, 'THIS' is NOT normal. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

I got my backside moving today. I cut the grass and weeded... First time i've been proactive for a while, so that HAS to be a good thing, right? However... my legs STILL feels weak and buzzy, this cannot be anxiety, i am on anxiety medication... I'm slightly pissed off about this. I don't want to start getting scared about this now.....................