BEING SARAH.......

4 months since i did an update....?  And to think blogger USE to be my life, i use to love documenting what was happening, now, not so much... These days i get bored far too quickly and really can't be bothered.. But its 9.27am and i thought i'd check out my blog and maybe have a change around, i DO love a change in background and script... ;) So what's been happening? .............................................................................................. That's all :)

Over the last month i have been diagnosed with severe anemia, had my 39th birthday, school broke up for the holidays, i stabbed myself through the finger with a dinner knife (not even a sharp one), but deep enough to have all the fat tissue hanging out, shave off the top off my little finger and have a round of botox and fillers............. That's all.

I was watching YT videos last night and scared myself silly.  I was contemplating cancelling my appointment, i was SO close... Got there this morning at 11.30.  The girl who did it was lovely, really calmed me down... Sat in the chair and didn't feel anything.  A slight scratchy feeling at one point but nothing i would call 'pain'... I reckon i was there for about 30 minutes, maybe a bit more - and i am really happy with the result.. :)

Blogging is something i use to do religiously.. Playing out my life in words, every day, but now, i seem to have lost the desire, maybe because i really don't have much to talk about these days.  There is no drama, no boyfriend/friend troubles, i am just plodding along with me and my boy.. Each day is filled with laughter and happiness.  I am truly blessed with all i have been through that i finally have that in my life.

..of being 'single, and when i say single i mean in the way of not having a regular boyfriend.  Obviously i was seeing the guy that made me pregnant, but i wouldn't have called him a boyfriend by any stretch of the imagination.   I have definitely had my fair share of dates, especially right after i split up with the ex, but since then, nothing really and i have said for months and months i was happy leaving it that way, but now, maybe, just maybe it's time to be with someone else.... I am ready to be a couple again... This is SHOCKING news to me... and being realistic though, it's not likely to happen anytime soon.... I DON'T GO OUT!!!.............

MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!! Don't forget people, that i do have a YT account that i still update from time to time... :)

It has been such a very long time since i blogged regularly, and not that there is much going on in my life right now to talk about, there has been changes...... I can't even remember what i have and haven't written about... but i will go back to last August. .. Sit tight................... I met a man, he was lovely... we were seeing each other for a couple of months when in November (13th) i found out i was pregnant, it was a massive surprise, scary and left me feeling confused and unsure of my future.  I told the man involved and he basically told me to fuck off ... and i haven't heard from him since. I found out on a Wednesday, i went over to my friends, did a pregnancy test and she also hasn't spoken to me since!!!!! On the Sunday morning i was getting some quite bad pains and spotting, so i went down to A& E.  I was sent to the EPU where i had a scan.  Nothing was seen apart from the gestational sac on the screen,  so i was told to come back in...

So much has gone on in my life lately, i don't even know where to begin.  I will write more soon :) .. but i am back, for now.

I decided on the very boring and dull Sunday afternoon to write a well overdue blog post... ... So, here goes! It all started going 'wonky' on the 13th of November 2013.  My periods were a few days late