BEING SARAH.......

My tongue is CLEARLY wonking off to the left side..... And it hurts.... and i am still slurring.... :(

...With all the strange going's on with my body i have (obviously) convinced myself i have MS or worse than that ALS. I am shitting myself. I have been doing endless tests on my hands this morning, because what do you know, it appears that i have a problem with my *Ulnar Nerve*. I have weakness in my pinky.... and ulnar nerve problems are caused by... MS/ALS! I have a constant skin crawling sensation all over my face... i am really scared. I am fixed up with a EMG on the 21st February... Panic time.

...how many do YOU have? Mine are in bold... * Allergy problems, increase in allergies (number, sensitivity, reactions, lengthier reactions) Back pain, stiffness, tension, pressure, soreness, spasms, immobility in the back or back muscles * Blanching (looking pale, loss of color in the face or skin) * Blushing, turning red, flushed face, flushed skin, blushing, red face or skin * Body jolts, body zaps, electric jolt feeling in body, intense body tremor or “body shake” * Body temperature increase or decrease, change in body temperature * Burning skin, itchy, “crawly,” prickly or other skin sensations, skin sensitivity, numbness on the skin * Burning skin sensation on the face, neck, ears, scalp, or shoulders * Chest pain, chest tightness * Choking * Chronic Fatigue, exhaustion, super tired, worn out * Clumsiness, feeling clumsy, co-ordination problems with the limbs or body * Cold chills, feeling cold * Craving sugar, sweets, chocolate, usual craving for sugar and swee...

Whether i sleep or don't sleep i always feel exhausted > Feel unwell (pained, palpitations, neuro symptoms) > panicky (health anxiety > not wanting to go out > depression > feel more unwell > more depressed > definitely don't want to go out.... when i DO go out it's ... feel ill > anxiety > panic > need to get home. That's my life, right there... Battling constantly with feeling SO ill... ALL the time. SO tired that i can't even muster enough energy to go to the toilet, i sit and wait until i am on the brink and crawl to the bathroom..... This is NOT fucking normal.

In the 12 1/2 years i have lived in this house, i have NEVER had new furniture in my front room. My sofa was second hand, my old CD shelf was from the 60's if not earlier and the TV unit, well - i have blogged about that. That was a VERY cheap Argos black ash unit that my BIL built a pine cupboard around it... Anyway.... slightly off topic. I LOVE my new sideboard. I fits in all my CDs/DVD's... and they are HIDDEN... a-maz-ing. Because of the vast expanse of space on top... i had to put something on it.... and this is what's there - left to right.... Picture of me and the boy, re-framed, 5 Buddha's and a magic wand.  My new piece of art and in front of that a bowl of Hersheys yumminess.  I big foam 'S' that my BF purchased for me.  A picture of me and the BF, then one of the boy and me and finally a snow globe...  :)