Cannot do this for a second longer. I'm not sticking around waiting to be fucked over by yet another man, what is the point? To get my heart stamped on and crushed - again. I simply couldn't cope with it. It's bad enough feeling as if it WILL happen, but feeling it every second of every day is draining. I can't sleep because i worry about it. I can't talk about it with him because it will cause a row and i hate arguing. Nothing is ever resolved through shouting at each other. The constant paranoia, uncertainty, fear... Do i NOT have enough to fucking deal with already???
Love doesn't even come into it. People get cheated on and apparently its not because they're not loved anymore, what a load of bollocks, seriously! Come on people....
I am driving myself crazy.
There is fuck all point in being with someone when you feel so shit, insecure and unsure. I try not to let this show, but it's hard and i can't keep it in anymore. I am bursting. I need to let it out. I need to be on my own. I need to be well enough to cope with a relationship, right now, i am no where near that.
He's just told me he's going to a pub on Friday with his mates where loads of single ladies will be, of his age, "NORMAL" women....."SANE" women....."ATTRACTIVE" women with tits.....
Just CANNOT fucking do it.
Love doesn't even come into it. People get cheated on and apparently its not because they're not loved anymore, what a load of bollocks, seriously! Come on people....
I am driving myself crazy.
There is fuck all point in being with someone when you feel so shit, insecure and unsure. I try not to let this show, but it's hard and i can't keep it in anymore. I am bursting. I need to let it out. I need to be on my own. I need to be well enough to cope with a relationship, right now, i am no where near that.
He's just told me he's going to a pub on Friday with his mates where loads of single ladies will be, of his age, "NORMAL" women....."SANE" women....."ATTRACTIVE" women with tits.....
Just CANNOT fucking do it.
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