Not doing great..

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..with my mood.

Friday was a really hard day, i self harmed (not badly), but i did it after months and months of abstaining from hurting myself.

I have so much love coming from my non-committing boyfriend, although he did say that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me...((but with no wedding/children/engagement)). What am i to make of that? Fucks my head right up. I adore him. He knows it too. My life is amazing since he came along...but....arggghhhhhhhhh! You know the rest!

Anyway. I just don't know really.


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