BEING SARAH.......

..and wowzers.. so much has been going on! The biggest thing that has happened is that a person that i know got the arse ache when i spoke to their ex about the reasons they split, they had a MASSIVE shit fit, came to my house shouting abuse at my door, then sent round their parents (they are 36 years of age!!!) and came back the next day, repeated the abusive behaviour and walked off stamping all over my flowers... Fast forward to last Friday, this person spoke to my best friend and made a threat against me saying that they were going to get me back, payback because i deserved it... *I SPOKE TO THEIR EX, I DIDN'T KILL A PUPPY* .. My friend being a friend told me about this and it caused her concern so i was left with no option but to go to the police.....The police went round and had a word... But the all the shit (evidence of threats) i had via text was quite disgusting...Thank god i kept them since they needed to see it all. What else...?  I have been seeing a fella for ab...

I have crazy ideas, all the time.  Some work out, some don't. Let me tell you a little story!  It's short...  I got my dog pregnant, i kept a puppy (Bear) and between them they killed my grass at the back, so i decided to erect a picket fence ALONE which is harder than it sounds let me tell you.  Digging holes, dodging cement that was spilled over from the path, making sure it's level....Cutting down pieces so they joined... Digging up deep rooted plants that were in the way, replanting said plants......but what do you know!?........... Sarah is fricking amazing!............ Still needs another coat... but i am on that today! ALL BY MYSELF! :)

Bearman - 32 weeks old.........  He is an amazing dog, such a handsome boy too............. WE LOVE BEARMAN!!!!

Soo... As well as being amazingly happy with my life right now, i have also been working out.  I have always done sit ups, everyday, since i was 16, but i was not seeing brilliant results.  Yes i kind of had a '4 pack' ish.. but nothing amazing, so i decided that at my age i needed to step up the exercise and do something that was actually going to show me results, and i think i have managed that.  In 11 short weeks i have developed amazing tone on my stomach and now i have added legs into the mix and they are toning up too!   These results come from TEN minutes a day.  No equipment.  No trainer.  No money spent.  This is pure hard work and devotion to getting it right....And i am HAPPY!  Oh yeah.... I need to step it up a wee bit now, start adding some more exercises into my normal routine and i will be even happier... ;) This just goes to show i never needed to be a 'gym bunny' to get toned ;) What else... MY GARDEN!  I...

Another 5 weeks have past since i have blogged... 'cause there is really not much to blog about.. I am still agoraphobic... BUT... I am loving life... LOVE LOVE LOVE!  I have changed so much over the last year without having a man in my life.  I am more calm,  happier, so much happier.. depression has gone completely, everything is just fabulous in my little world!!! That's about it... ♥

For those who know me, know my blog, would also know i have had a lifetime fear of vomiting.... Well, i can safely say i no longer have that fear... Monday morning i woke up at 6am feeling 'odd'... a little nauseous.  I went downstairs and made myself a coffee hoping that it would make me feel better........ BAD CHOICE!!!!! In under an hour i was puking, and then i puked again.... and again!  For FOUR hours i was throwing up!..... But holy shit, that was the easy part, the sweats/aches/shivering and headache that followed was the worse bit.  I pretty much slept all of yesterday, i couldn't even move out of my bed.  My neighbours (god bless them) gave my boy his tea because i couldn't even get out of bed, let alone think about making food.... All night i was up and down out of bed changing my bed clothes because i had a massive fever...  However this morning, no i don't feel great and i am now shitting (a lot),  i feel much better than i did.... So y...

I am not just in a little bit of pain, i am in AGONY and have been for weeks/months and due to my own stupidity i am refusing to go to the doctors.  Why?  Since the 'breakdown' and all the nonsense that brought with it, i am afraid that i will be looked at in the same way i was looked at back then, like i am nuts and that it's 'ALL IN MY HEAD' when i know 100% its not.  I sleep on an orthopedic pillow which to be fair, does nothing to elevate the pain what-so-ever... Last night for example, my back, neck, shoulders, elbows  wrists, hips and knees hurt, not just a little bit, a lot and right now, i am kind of half sitting with the pillow around my back and shoulders and the pain in my neck is unbelievable.  Every time i try and move my head to look down, the pain in my spine is something else... something quite special in fact. So yeah.. all i wanted to do is have a whinge... and now i feel like i have purged my moaniness.... :)

Going from being an avid blogger to barely ever writing anything is weird.  It's not that i don't have anything to talk about, its more to do with the fact i cannot be arsed. So it's Friday, the 15th March.. and a good day to talk i feel... PUPPIES... Both the dogs i was selling have gone.   Bindi went about 3/4 weeks ago and Brian went last Wednesday, it was very sad both times.. I do still have little Bear, who isn't so little any more... He's a giant and almost as big as Bluebell.. He is a gorgeous bundle of fluffy fun and i adore him.   This wast the last picture of Brian.... He was mahooosive....and my little Bear there at the back! My ex has been flitting in and out of my life, much to everyones disgust.  He comes in, hes lovely and says all the right things, then i find out he's been lying to me massively and when i question him on the lies i get called a 'psycho stalker' - which of course i am not.. but he should think about who he tal...

So, puppies are 8 weeks old today - and i still have them all.  Brilliant.  I am the owner of 4 Lhasa Apsos... Not quite sure how this is going to work out, but i guess it will have to.  I love them all anyway, so it's not a chore, it's a very lovely pleasure... Apart from the constant pee and poo but i guess it comes with the territory... I'm on guard every second, armed with antibacterial and kitchen roll. It's been snowing ALL day today and still i reckon we have no more than 2 inches.  It's quite a let down, i really thought (and according to all the weather reports) we were going to be 'snowed in'.... Hasn't happened. (I am loving Pinterest at the moment, just saying).

RIP BARRY CONNICK JUNIOR - 26/11/12 - 3/1/12 You were a blessing to Bluebells litter....You'll be missed little wee man. Love you always....................................