Alright?

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Firstly, thank you everyone who commented on my exes letter. I was thinking that maybe it was a little bit provoked because i emailed him asking about the women he'd been out with. I don't know, but what he wrote was NOTHING different to the shit that came out of his mouth pretty much everyday.

For the most part this is going to be a positive blog :)

My boyfriend walked in yesterday and i started moaning because he was 45 minute late! He handed his car keys to me and said "There's something for you"...I grabbed the keys in a petulant way and stormed off. Sitting on the floor in the back were these..



..how could i be mad anymore? I walked in holding them, massive smile on my face, with my tail between my legs feeling all sorry for being a whinger. Then ((and this bit shocked me)), he said as of 6.10 this evening, you're now insured on my car. WTF!???? This is MASSIVE for HIM and me. I won't lie, anxiety filled my body, it meant that now i have NO excuse other than panic. Later we went out...alone...no mummy shadow, just us. I didn't manage a great distance, but i did it...and i drove around a bit too. We were out for about 15 minutes. He was really pleased because he didn't think i would even go anywhere.

There is a nagging underlying feeling that i have that he's not being genuine, although this gesture would now prove otherwise. Because of his job (hairdresser) they all know what to say, how to say it and when to say it, AKA "being full of bullshit", so i can't distinguish whether he is being honest, or not. I guess what with the flowers and the insurance, he does like me, a bit, but then sometimes when he doesn't answer his phone/texts, that sets me off into thinking that he's with another women - my head is so fucked up.

Comments

em said…
hi sarah

pretty flowers. i think it all comes back to us in the end. how we interpret things. what has been done to us in the past. we bring foward and treat others in that way.

someone is treating you differently, kindly. you deserve this. x
29/08/2009, 22:27
coffeecup said…
I guessed you'd asked about the women hunny but that letter was not provoked or justified ever. Who can blame you for asking, you were in love for all those years. The response was horrible beyond wildest nightmares and I absolutely hated reading it. That was me, how you must have felt I can't imagine. The flowers were well timed I thought.

Maybe you just don't think you deserve to be well treated? If that letter was 'normal' then it figures why you should be suspicious of someone doting on you. Alice is right. Someone is treating you differently and you definitely DO deserve this xxx
29/08/2009, 23:16
Robert said…
I reckon he's genuine. And you deserve him. Unlike that other f****r of an ex who has to be a sick f**k to write you all that bile. How you stuck him for 7 years amazes me.

Although I haven't been on your blog much for a while, I've been keeping up to date with your news...and I'm really pleased for you that your life is on a better course.
30/08/2009, 03:18
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