2 YEARS TODAY!!!

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..and now, my HUSBAND (yes, i am still married, although still separated) called today and told me he wants a divorce! I was always ALWAYS hoping that we'd get back together, because i DO and i AM still in love with him and miss him every-single-day...clearly, he's not feeling the same. He reeled off all the same reasons why he wants the divorce...but we had NEW reasons too. The first 'new' reason is that he is going to Australia next year and if we were together, he wouldn't be able to save the money to go - therefore a VERY GOOD reason to not be together. Another reason, he HATES where i live and never wants to live here again...

The day my world fell apart :(
30/5/2009

Comments

lotte said…
Yes it fell apart...AND started all over again...you have done things in these last 2 years that I never thought possible AND m sure as hell you never thought you'd do these things either.

You have come so far...Im so so proud of you

You are amazing :)
xoxoxox
30/05/2011, 10:57
Nikki said…
I thought from your previous posts you were glad you weren't with him anymore.. I thought you said he wasn't v nice to you etc?
Im thinking either Ive got it wrong, or its just a natural reaction to him wanting a divorce iykwim?
Your new fella seems like a really nice guy and you dont seem to have many complaints about him.. he seems to be showing more signs of commitment than when you first got together.. The new car, the ring etc, he does seem to want to move things forward, rather than just be with you full stop. Together you've made lots of progress too, but ultimately youve done it and done well.

I hope you feel a bit better today, now the news has sank in a little more. xx
31/05/2011, 11:38
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