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My absence speaks volumes i think.
Round 2 of heartbreak in under 4 months is simply more than *I* can deal with.
I actually found someone who cared about me...who loved me...but because of my irrational fear of being hurt - i have ended up being exactly that.

This is WORSE than Arsewipe telling me he wanted a divorce, and that is saying something.

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Nikki said…
Hi Sarah,

have you told him your side of things, have you explained how you feel and where you think things might've gone wrong? I always thing its worth talking things out, even when its pretty hard, Im sure he will understand your fears if you tell him.

I used to watch Dr Phil all the time when I was living at home (yes, Dr Phil *hangs head*).. Sometimes he spoke rubbish, but I remember one thing he said thats always stuck with me, and Im the biggest culprit for it, but he said 'What I fear, I create'. Ever since he said that Ive noticed that some of my biggest fears have come true. I spend too much time fearing the worst and not enjoying the moment.

If things don't work out after a talk or something then it's a shame, hes probably passed up on a lovely girl. Im a big believer on there being someone for everyone, the right one is there!

A nice girlie film a fave drink and some choccies are in order I think.


Hugs xx.
11/09/2009, 10:46
Sarah♥ said…
He's made it crystal clear that he wants nothing more to do with me.
11/09/2009, 10:48
em said…
hi sarah

keep hanging in there. youve got through a messy divorce, your stronger then you think you are. focus on anything, to keep your mind off of things. thinking of you.xxx
11/09/2009, 14:25
Nikki said…
:( Sending you lots of hugs.
Ditto what Alice said too. And I know you don't know me from Adam (Who or what is 'Adam' anyway, will have to Google now!) but I'm never too far away and you can always email or msn me if you want.

xx.
11/09/2009, 16:21
Sarah♥ said…
Hi Alice.
I got over my divorce because i was being supported by him. He was there for me...now i have no one again :(
11/09/2009, 16:41
Sarah♥ said…
Nikki..
Thanks for your message, means a lot :)

x
11/09/2009, 16:42
Nikki said…
Sarah Im sure you getting over your divorce wasnt solely down to his support.. dont underestimate yourself :)

And you def don't have no one, you seem to have some nice friends who write you comments here and Im sure youve plenty of RL mates too.

xx.
13/09/2009, 20:35
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