Falling apart.........

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I can't and haven't stopped crying since *IT* happened on Sunday (apart from when i was out walking yesterday).

I am not strong enough to deal with a break-up when i am still coping with a breakdown.

I am an idiot and i've lost my baby..... forever.

FUCK OFF STUPID MENTAL FUCKING HEALTH PROBLEMS.  YOU'VE RUINED MY LIFE AND MY FUCKING RELATIONSHIP.

Comments

vinny said…
oh i'm so sorry Sarah but i'm sure you will get back together hun,give him time i don't think he will leave you xxxxxxxxxx
07/03/2012, 12:47
Kaci said…
Hugs Sarah! You are much much stronger than you give yourself credit for. When me and my ex broke it off, I felt like it was a huge mistake and it took a long time for me to get over things but now that I have let go, I've realized that it really was for the best. He was a good person but we saw things very differently and wanted different things for the future. During the times I missed him and felt it was a mistake, it was because I kept remembering the good times and not the bad or the things that we really didn't get along about that were important. I don't know if you feel this way too but I tend to worry I won't find someone else who will look past the agoraphobia to date me so I've tended to stay in relationships where I was sacrificing too much of what I needed. Nowadays, I've realized that I can't keep telling myself that.

If you really do feel it was a mistake though, then just remember nothing is set in stone! It is possible for you to work things out with him.
07/03/2012, 13:56
em said…
sorry your feeling so crap. hope things work out the way you want them in the end. take care. x
07/03/2012, 15:28
WillowKat11 said…
Sorry to hear you're going through this, i can't tell you how many times i broke up and got back with my ex when i first got these problems too, took years for it to finally end and i'm not going to lie i'm still recovering from that experience, there is still things i miss but the drama i don't miss and there was way more than there needed to be. Maybe listing reasons it's a good idea to be together and a list of reasons it's not will help you decide what is for the best, sometimes the confusion of what you want can make it harder, don't worry i still get this way myself at times, it's not easy when they are also your saftey person and are a link to some normality in life, just be sure you want it to work for the right reasons, whatever happens still concentrate on your recovery, remember any pill is not going to stop panic or bad feelings completely, don't let the greif be a setback, it's a natural reaction to something painful, don't be afraid of it. I really hope whatever is for the best for you will happen. xo.

Kat.
08/03/2012, 13:08
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