Changes.
I don't know if i mentioned this or not but i am currently paying for private hypnotherapy sessions. Today was my 3rd, it was very interesting because what was said made perfect sense.
How am i EVER going to get well when i hate myself so much? I've got to stop feeling so down about my looks (easier said than done), stop feeling like a failure in ALL areas of my life, stop taking the blame for things that don't even concern me, stop worrying about my relationship, stop feeling like i am worthless/pathetic/ a loser...and lastly, STOP LETTING PEOPLE TREAT ME LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT!
ANY IDEA'S HOW I AM MEANT TO DO THIS....PLEASE COMMENT!
How am i EVER going to get well when i hate myself so much? I've got to stop feeling so down about my looks (easier said than done), stop feeling like a failure in ALL areas of my life, stop taking the blame for things that don't even concern me, stop worrying about my relationship, stop feeling like i am worthless/pathetic/ a loser...and lastly, STOP LETTING PEOPLE TREAT ME LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT!
ANY IDEA'S HOW I AM MEANT TO DO THIS....PLEASE COMMENT!
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And yes what they have said does make sense BUT we have spent years of our lifes if not all of it letting people treat us like shit, blaming ourselves for everything that goes wrong for hating ourseleves etc etc.......SO we cant change it all overnight, wake up tomorrow loving ourseleves, feeling like we are worthwhile.
In my therapy I have been told that I should do something NICE for myself every day....eg paint nails, have a bath, read a book, put nice body lotion on......I cant manage everyday because of my low self esteem BUT when I do do something kind for myself I write it down along with any other positives I may have achieved that day. We are to quick to find the negatives in our lives and discount the positives.
Just try to be kind to yourself and REMEBER that you are worth loving, you are not pathetic or worthless..AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT I WILL NOT BE THE ONLY ONE THAT THINKS THIS!!!!
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I don't have a problem with bathing, reading a book, painting my nails, but i don't see that as 'being kind to myself' - it's just want normal girls do.
The therapist asked me about times in my life where i have been happy, and i really struggled with that. When i say HAPPY, i mean properly content..., that'll be once or twice then for me.
I can't all of a sudden start ACCEPTING the way i look, i have hated myself for too many years to turn it around and start loving it, that would make me a hypocrite surely!?
Fuck know's my lovely...
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the hypnotherapy sounds good :) What are you doing it for, one specific thing (like the main worry), or the whole lot?
I have no idea either though.. I hate the thought of anyone hating themselves, yet I hate myself too!
I tried a positive thinking book.. but struggled so much :o/ I dont know why, I just struggle with reading, not the actual words, but just getting my head around it and/or keeping it in, weird.
At that CBT appointment ages ago the guy repeated back to me some of the stuff I said about myself, about what I feel about me or what I do, and it was shocking really, and no wonder I feel so low believing what I do. But its years on years of feeling this way, how do you undo that?!
Ive heard or read about all sorts, listing something positive about yourself each day, standing in the mirror and saying positive affirmations (Id feel like a twat myself!).. I really don't know. Theres days where Im ok with myself, then days where I just hate everything about me. I wish I had the answers.
Didn't he or she give you any ideas where to start, could you ask at your next appointment?
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My therapy was meant to be for just agoraphobia, turns out, that she is simply gobsmacked with the amount of shit that i have been through and understand possibly why i am so mental! So, because of that, we're now having to work on a lot more than we initially thought. More money for her!!!!
I could NEVER in a million stand in front a mirror and tell myself that i am wonderful...lol...i am laughing as i write that.
She told me to read the book "The Secret" - which luckily i do have, but haven't looked at it. I don't mind reading, i've read ALL of Katie Prices autobiographies..., but that is only that kind of shit that'll sink in, oh, that and Heat or Closer magazine. I'm painting a good picture of myself.
I suppose i'd better *try* and read it. I've got until next week. Ho hum.
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love ya big hugs lovely xxxxxx♥
It's basically deep relaxation, it is amazing...but we'll wait to see what happens.
Dress in a dress? PMSL. I don't own a dress. I hate my short stumpy legs, there is no way i would wear one. A good idea if i was 5'8 ;)
Hope you and your plus one are well today my lovely.
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I just had a breakup a few months ago and while it was very hard to go through and still I have difficult days, I now have a lot of time to focus on myself and work on myself so that the next relationship I get into, I'll make better choices. So I've been focusing on things I enjoy to do, things that make me feel good about myself. I hope this helps :) You deserve to be happy with yourself, it's the best relationship you'll be in. (I know that sounds really corny lol)
I wouldn't treat anyone the way i treat myself, but when you HATE yourself, making that switch from hate to love is hard, and will take a long time, especially since the feeling of worthlessness is consuming.
Sorry to read about your relationship break-up, hope you're doing okay. Break-ups are SO hard, it's as if you heart has been ripped out, but (i know THIS is corny), time IS a healer.
I should really take time out of everything to work on me....that WOULD make sense.
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quite a few celebs are 5"2 and they look good in dresses here are just a few
reese witherspoon
christina aguilera
mary-kate olsen
shakira
emma bunton
the list goes on and you look just as great as any of these sweety ♥♥