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I've been consumed with horrible thoughts today. Really bad. Is there really no way out of this for me? If not, what the fuck is the point to any of it?

I have been trying SO hard...doing things, going places....trying my hardest to overcome this, but i don't want this to be my life. I don't want to live like this anymore..and i cannot possibly do any more than i already am!!!!

So down. So unhappy. So fed up.

Comments

em said…
sorry your feeling like this. not that it will help you but we all feel like this at times. just got to ride through it, yet you think why should i have too. life isnt fair. give little bluebell cuddles. x
07/02/2011, 19:46
Kaci said…
I know how you feel, I've been there too. When I think of my life being like this, I get really sad and depressed and just don't want to go on. Call friends, do something to cheer you up. Focus on your good qualities. I know you have them! I know it's hard, sometimes I find it very difficult because I feel the anxiety trumps everything but I want to be able to find a way to live and be happy. I don't want it to win. You are a very strong person to deal with this, you may not feel like it but it's true. Big hugs Dear, I hope you feel better soon.
08/02/2011, 00:07
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