Want to talk about, my boyfriend.

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The progress i have made over the last few months is all down to him and the way he accepts me TOTALLY, NO PRESSURE!! My illness, agoraphobia, panic attacks - none of it is a problem. He doesn't like to hear me hating on myself, saying how disgusting i am, when he loves me like he does, quite literally warts 'n' all!!!

When i first got with him, i couldn't even get down to the shop which is like 2 minutes in the car, if that. I couldn't go round the big roundabout near me, which is even closer. I couldn't get to his straight away. That took 8 weeks+ and even then it was touch and go for a while.

Now, i am panic free getting to his. I can go to the supermarket with him. I can walk into town from his, i DO still struggle walking any distances with him, but it'll come. As you know, HE took me to the hospital for my operation, i've been to his mothers, i went to the theater, stayed away for the weekend in a hotel, been to the cinema, Salsa dancing, the food fayre, picnic, bowling and yesterday to the garden centre, It's all amazing stuff. I am beaming with happiness. Most of that has happened in the last 3 months...

Get this - THIS Saturday, we're going CAMPING! CAMPING!????? LOL - How funny? I am so excited. Just spending time with him is fabulous. I love him dearly. He is wonderful, i am blessed to have him in my life....

♥

Comments

Manchester Lass, Now and Then said…
Love is great isn't it♥ Sounds like your boyfriend is a really top bloke. Have a great time camping:)
22/06/2010, 22:03
Shelly said…
awesome!! have fun!
22/06/2010, 22:14
em said…
good luck with the camping, you got the right weather for it. xx
23/06/2010, 20:46
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