This...

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...no commitment thing is killing me. Everyday i think of what i've always wanted from a relationship, happiness, love, respect...and eventually marriage and children. I crave to have the upbringing i never did. I WANT to have that family unit with a mum and dad together.

Am i compromising too much?

Comments

vinny said…
no way any person would want that sarah,i want that too but cos of my stupid anxiety its stopping me,ive got the perfect man who would mary me and does want kids but my flipin life is stopping me ggrrrr,have u told him how u feel honey? x♥x
05/08/2010, 16:37
Sarah♥ said…
We've had chats about this and because he's perfectly happy with the not getting married/having children thing, i don't have a leg to stand on. He will just say "You knew this about me when we got together", which IS true. But i didn't expect to feel so strongly about someone else after what i had gone through with my ex, so....i just don't know.
05/08/2010, 17:44
vinny said…
oh thats crappy,i didnt know he felt this strong about marrige etc,what a pain can you not change his mind lol but thats a bummer if you want to and he doesnt,would he just leave if you gave him an ultimatum?sorry my spelling is rubish lol,surley if you said,would you like to get engaged or even if you bought him a ring and got down on one knee urself then surley he isnt gonna run a mile and say no is he?i really do feel for you,that must be really sad,i usually try and use blackmail and say stuff like....you musnt love me then as much as you say you do,or arnt i good enough for you?are you embarressed of me?etc etc but then again dont take my advice cos that usually ends up in an argument lol
owwww poor you ;0(
05/08/2010, 17:57
vinny said…
right gotta run,gonna go dye my hair,yeah black again suprise suprise lol,chat to you soon i do try checking back once a week to see how ur doing ;0) xx
05/08/2010, 18:08
Sarah♥ said…
Thanks for your comments. He won't ever change his mind.
05/08/2010, 19:05
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