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MY LIFE JUST ISN'T WHAT I EXPECTED WHEN I WAS GROWING UP! I NEVER WANTED TO HAVE MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS. I DIDN'T WANT TO HATE MYSELF. I DIDN'T WANT ANY OF IT. WHEN YOU ARE CONSUMED WITH SO MANY ISSUES - IT'S REALLY DIFFICULT TO KNOW WHICH WAY TO TURN IN ORDER TO MAKE IT BETTER.

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Kaci said…
I know what you mean. I feel I have so much I want to change that I do not know where to start. Once I start going in one direction, then I see something else I need to fix and go in the other direction! It's so frustrating!
21/01/2011, 21:22
Sarah♥ said…
Exactly. You start to fix one thing, neglect the other...and then it's back to square one.

Which way to turn!??

Thanks for commenting gorgeous lady, hope you're well :)

x
21/01/2011, 21:24
Kaci said…
You know, I've been so bummed out lately, I went over to my neighbors to talk to her about things and she said I need to start out by being nicer to myself.

I think she has a good point, the way I speak to myself, I'd never ever speak to someone I love and I think that is where I am going to start, by being nicer to myself. Nobody else can be me...even if I don't want to be myself sometimes *sigh* I am sure somewhere there is something special about me I just need to realize. I think that's true for everyone, everyone has something to offer the world :) I hope you feel better soon, I know how hard it is and how FREAKING frustrating it feels!!
22/01/2011, 02:37
vinny said…
hi sarah i do agree loads with ur comment,we never asked to be like this so why does it happen,when will it get better?and why isnt it going away? i was different to you as i was not bullied and was always outgoing as a child and in my early teens,always wanted to be the centre of attention but not anymore i could just hide away 4eva and eva or stay in bed 4eva sometimes when i feel crappy,think it all stemmed from my parents passing away when i was 14-15 and i didnt get all my symtoms right away not untill i was about 19-20 but i was in a rubish relationship with a lad who used to hit me ;0(
now i'm in the best ever relationship with the most perfect man,just wish i was perfect too xxxxx
23/01/2011, 01:29
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