I NEED HELP/ADVICE.

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Alright there people. I need some help.

I've got to make a decision that will cause me extreme pain, but it's one that needs to be addressed.

Should i let my boyfriend go to find a "normal" girlfriend?

I cannot stand seeing the disappointment in his face when i can't do things. It crushes me every time. I love this man so much, but he doesn't deserve to be stuck with a fuck up like me.

Comments

Drew said…
You don't have to do anything that causes you extreme pain Sarah, because YOU control the situation. I know you don't believe it, but you really do. Agoraphobia does not control your life - you do.

Probably not what you want to hear, but in a year you've probably seen and heard enough of me to know my schtick. LOL

C'mon woman, we're all rooting for you!
02/02/2010, 15:10
em said…
keep hold of him sarah. you never know what the future might hold. you didnt think you were going to stay at his house at first and you did. i know things can be hard. xxxx
02/02/2010, 15:58
Robert said…
"Should i let my boyfriend go to find a "normal" girlfriend?" Yes, if you want to dump him. Otherwise NO!

Is he a proper grown up? Is he capable of making up his own mind?

Or are you scared of getting hurt if things don't work out? You don't have to have anxiety issues to be scared of that.

Either you open yourself up to having your heart broken and make the best possible effort to have a good relationship, or you dump him now, break both of your hearts and spend the rest of your life wondering "What did I do that for???"

That's the REAL decision you have to make.
02/02/2010, 16:45
Manchester Lass, Now and Then said…
Don't give up Sarah. From what I have read and the photo's you have posted you seem perfect for each other♥ Don't give up trying to beat, or control your Agoraphobia. You can do it♥ xoxo
02/02/2010, 21:41
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