I did it...

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He calls me, and he starts talking about dinner tonight and what do *I* have in my house to eat... I said to him not to bother coming round and when he asked why i just let IT ALL OUT!!!! I said that i was really unhappy about the way he spoke to me, he said that it was because he'd been feeling ill, then i reminded that he did it on Monday when he wasn't sick too. His response was....I'd just woken up from a deep sleep and i was grumpy, i then told him not to take it out on me, and perhaps, if i do call and he has just woken up to say he'll call me back in a bit, rather than talk to me like dogs shit. He said that he knows it was wrong but he was tired... Then i suggested perhaps if he doesn't get pissed it wouldn't happen...he didn't respond to that one surprisingly. Anyway.... I got it all out, off my chest.... then i receive this....


I even said that if he keeps doing it i will end it........ Is he bothered? I doubt it.....

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Charlotte Ca said…
Sarah
What about taking yourself away from your blog and other peoples opinions, and not see your boyfriend for a while and have a really good think about what you want deep down.
If you decide to go ahead seeing him, then realise this is how he his. He won't change. You will be always be up and down with how you feel about how he is behaving. You will keep going round in circles and it will be the same I guess in 6 months time, 1 years time, however long... He wont change. He is the type of man who wants a girlfriend but on his terms. If she wants committment and more then forget it. He sounds immature. One of my ex's was like him. He would say Oh I will see you in 2 weeks time! and it really used to upset me because I wanted to see more of him. He didnt live that far away! He told me he loved me and all the rest, however, he wanted all the relationship and love but on his terms. In the end I just ended it and walked away for good, because it was never going to go anywhere, and the last I heard was that he was still going from girlfriend to girlfriend, still living alone. I moved on and have a really good relationship now. I am glad I did move on otherwise I would still b be in the same old never going anywhere relationship with him. Men like your boyfriend are committment phobics (or something like that - I read an article a while ago about it lol). However if that is how he wants to behave then fine but do you really want to be with a man like that?
If you do decide to leave him, then you are free to the possibility of meeting a man in the future who will treat you well.
Dont just put up with this bf because you don't want to be left alone. x
21/07/2011, 15:34
Sarah♥ said…
I know you are completely right. He does want a relationship but on his terms...

I'd value other peoples opinions, that's why i write.. If i didn't right then i would probably go mad. I need an outlet and this is it.

x
21/07/2011, 15:47
Nikki said…
I think its good to blog, or write things down.. It sounds silly, but have you said it all out loud.. to a friend or even yourself? Sometimes I go through stuff all in my head, but until I say it out loud I cant really tell how right it is.. hope that makes sense! I sometimes need to be quiet and think, others I just need to get it off my chest.

Im really glad you said something.. Ok, maybe he has a drink problem, maybe sometimes hes too pissed to realise how snappy he is, but youre right about that he doesnt have to take it all out on you all of the time (if any), mistakes happen, but he just seems extremely selfish. Plus if you were well, he'd probably try harder if he thought you would be out meeting other people, getting on and having fun without him, with the possibility you could meet someone nicer! You have problems too but you dont have a go when he calls you.. You deserve better.
Ive got to be honest now, cos Im fed up of you dragging yourself down.. and you can shout at me if you like, its my opinion.. you talk about these other women, but in all honesty, I think you are better looking than him! I look at those pics of your weekend, and stood next to Leon.. well, he looks like the type of fella you should be with.. I think Shaun(?) has been lucky to have you for this long.. And I dont doubt that all his other ex's feel sorry for you! One, for having to put up with his rubbish now, and not them.

xxxx
21/07/2011, 16:22
Sarah♥ said…
Blogging is what i do... :) Why would i stop? I do find it very helpful....

Going over shit in your head is not healthy, i need to expel it... i need it out, otherwise i would be rocking in the corner of my front room.

I've had two people say if i got out more he'd probably be different towards me, but i don't know so much. Ex girlfriends haven't been agoraphobic and he didn't care about them going out or even away for weekends... i reckon he quite liked it, he could get pissed.

I don't think i come close to looking as good as my boyfriend....

x
21/07/2011, 17:02
charlotte ca said…
Sarah - I am sorry - I feel bad now - what I wrote about blogging. What I meant was, maybe other peoples opinions could influence how you feel about your boyfriend. Just taking a step back from what everyone is saying,including me I guess is what I meant.
Oh I dont know what I am going on about! lol Sorry.
I like reading your blogs - they are really interesting. I understand what you mean about an outlet too.
I told you me and boyfriend have a good relationship and then guess what happens - we just had a big arguement and he said he is fed up with my moaning and why dont I end it if I am so p*ssed off!!!
The moon must be in some type of position at the moment that affects relationships. x
21/07/2011, 17:20
Sarah♥ said…
Please don't feel bad... I didn't mean for it to come across that i was upset.... I'm sorry.

I think it's just men in general at the moment, my friend had a massive argument with her fella too...

x
21/07/2011, 17:24
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