I'm living a fucking nightmare.

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He's out tonight, even though he knows how down i am and that i am really anxious at the moment, he didn't even consider spending the evening with me, instead he's out up the town.

Phone call...

Him..."Hi, you alright?"
Me....."I'm fine thanks, just got in the bath...."
Him...."Oh right...."
Me....."Are you in The Bull?"
Him..."No, too cold to sit outside, we're in Spoons."
Me...."How's Mark?"
Him...."He's fine, he's inside talking..."
Me....."Having a nice time....?"
Him...."Yeah, chatting. Oh, by the way....I'm going to Rayleigh next Friday with Mark and Lorna."

PAUSE

Me..."Oh? What about me?"
Him..."You can't go to Rayleigh, that's too far....."
Me..."Okay...."

I put the phone down. Then i sent a text saying (THROUGH TEARS!)... 'It would have been really nice to go somewhere where your girlfriend could be involved.'

What the fuck is the point?

He just replied with 'Yeah, i'll just wave my magic wand..." Nice, really nice.

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vinny said…
i really don't know why you bother with him sarah as he sounds like he's playing with ur mind or something and you are worthy of being loved,he may have thought it was too far but he should have asked you and see what you thought first without dismissing you from the trip as that's just mean again,when he is nice he probably is nice but i would probably rather be on my own than have somebody treat me like a door mat,you may be ill but ur not stupid thick or deserve to be walked all over,what gives him the right,bet he aint perfect!!!
i would think seriously bout ur future,i know there is ur son to consider but he would understand if you were unhappy,god you would pull another man straight away with your looks hun and i really mean that,its just finding the right one,i think ur fella is dead lucky to have you to be honest.
he does not want to get married
he does not want kids.
he does not want to move in together.
he does not want to spend you anniversary together.
nor does he want to spend your birthday together.
he goes out to the pub with his mate rather than be with you.
he arranges trips without you.
he has helped you which is fab but you do deserve a proper relationship to ya know sweetie.
what would he said if you said look we are going nowhere are we? would he just say ok then and give up on the relationship?cos if so then he does not care in the slightest,you have to work at things yeah i agree but he's not willing to do anything and only sees you a handful of times a month which is sad ;0( ♥♥
ps--- hope you can sort things out with him but it seems like ur going round in circles with him xxx
02/07/2011, 00:38
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