...and crash!

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I had yet another panic attack yesterday.  Right before i was going to the boyfriends.  I was proper anxious about going, but i made myself anyway.

Today, i've been to my friends and then round to the boyfriends brothers for coffee... We were out all morning until about 2.  However, since i left Tesco's on the way home, my mood has come crashing down to the point of when my sister and her family came round, i ended up crying.

Just fucking hate myself, hate my life..... Hate everything right now.  I am so fed up again.  I hate being like this, feeling so depressed, out of no where...drives me insane.

I'm going to get in the bath and soak my woes away.

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