My biggest downfall..

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..is not telling people EXACTLY how i feel.
There is so much i could/should have said to certain people throughout my life and still to this very day, but i don't, at the risk of looking stupid, not being accepted, for either being judged/criticised or for possibly upsetting the other person despite me REALLY needing to talk....

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Anonymous said…
Sarah
I know exactly how you feel. I spend most of my time wondering why I allowed people to say and get away with what they did to me in my life. I can remember hurtful comments from 20 years ago! I remember every word.
It upsets me so much. If only we could go back in time and tell them!
By the way I love The Inbetweener's. Once you get past all the bad language and all that, it really is funny. I thought I was much too old to watch them, but who cares! I watch lots of the different episodes when I am really down and it really lifts me.
Sending hugs
CharlotteCa2011@aol.com
10/09/2011, 21:14
vinny said…
yes i know how you feel too,i do tend to keep things bottled up and to pretend everything is ok when its not and i'm actually crying inside but nobody would know,don't wanna put my crap on other people that's why xxx
11/09/2011, 13:05
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