So bored.....................................

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...I am possibly the most bored i have ever been in my whole entire life. There's nothing on TV, there is nothing around the house i can do, no washing, nothing! I need a hobby...and quickly.

I wish there was someone i could talk to, interact with during the day. The truth of the matter is i spend ALL my waking day worrying. Worrying about this and that, without a break. My head hurts from the worrying and i know it's a massive problem.

How do you break the worrying cycle?


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Charlotte C said…
Hi -
Could you not consider some form of work, even if it is very part, time, maybe a day or 2 a week, or on a voluntary basis?
I am working now for myself, and suffer with agoraphobia and all the rest, plus I don't drive and live in a rural area, and when I was at home bored on my own in the day, it seriously affected how I felt about myself. It made me more depressed, I know that.I had no self esteem, I still dont have much now, but at least its a little better. Everyone else seemed to be working and I felt useless and guilty - that was just me tho.
I wanted to earn my own money again rather than having to claim benefits too.
What about doing a course? maybe Open University or something at college to help you in the future?
14/07/2011, 15:07
Sarah♥ said…
If i could leave the house alone, i would jump at the change of working, when i had my husband here, and i had a car etc, i was working 3 jobs a week....6 days a week..... but i wasn't as mental as i am now...i could do things a little more independently, whereas now....it's hard.

x
14/07/2011, 15:16
Nikki said…
The volunteer thing is a good idea, you don't need a car.. Just give Age Uk a ring and see if theres anyone in your area in need of a friend as part of their befriending scheme. Theres also a Mums thing here, basically Mums go and visit other Mums for help, support or a chat etc.. One used to come to me, but at the time I was struggling to let others in the house, so I binned it off! Google that and something should come up.
The OU is also a good idea.. I just bottled mine, then fell behind, then some other stuff crept in and it wasnt important anymore. Its hard, well, it was for me, to concentrate etc, that was a big part, it also left me pretty tired, which triggered off some health anxiety symptoms! But the course content, I enjoyed that.

The worrying.. My therapist tells me to put off all worries until early evening, then spend an hour writting about them.. what they are, why.. Then can I do something about them, if so make a plan etc or do it then and there. If not, just let it go. That really really works. Sometimes its not easy, but the alternative - driving yourself mad with it, isnt that great is it!
Im not very arty, but Ive loved colouring as a kid.. so I have colouring books(!), not the kiddie kind, just patterns etc, some fine tipped pens.. I enjoy that. i like painting by numbers! I know, both perhaps a bit sad, but they occupy my mind and keep me busy.. if i could paint or draw Id do that. I make cards sometimes, or bake.. I like reading, not War and Peace or anything, Karl Pilkington, Shit my Dad says.. stupid, light stuff.

xx
14/07/2011, 17:01
Sarah said…
Online classes would be an awesome idea! One of the best things that helped me was school - I had something else to obsess over! And because I did so well (because I obsessed ofcourse!) it really helped my self esteem. Maybe try 1 or 2 classes of something that interests you? You know I started with Interior Design...ended up in business (which I LOVED)...and now I'm pretty much set for life in terms of jobs if I so choose to work.

Also...making things. I'm not artsy, but my sister (a photographer) got into making digital art paintings. It's all computer based...has an etsy store. Keeps her busy and not bored. I was thinking of doing mosaic myself because I enjoy that. However...I have zero time at the moment.

Find something you can do that you can focus on completely...obsess if need be. It's a great way to deflect thoughts about yourself! And then when you're doing awesome at it - it will really boost your confidence :)
14/07/2011, 17:34
Sarah♥ said…
Hi Nikki... All very good ideas that i could look into. I'm a reader...i do read a lot. Right now it's Gok Wans autobiography, like you, i like the light hearted stuff, nothing that will take too much brain power... ;)

The worrying... I reckon i've spent 99% of today worrying about stuff that i can do eff all about... Nothing i can change, no amount of worrying will help the situation, i really need to occupy my brain.

x
14/07/2011, 18:23
Sarah♥ said…
Sarah..
I have already contacted the Open University to see what i could 'possibly' do. I know i am not academically stupid, it's just that i've not had to exercise brain power for many years, i think that'd definitely help.

..and it's funny you mention arty things, i am not artistic in any way...BUT...i have made cards in the past and they've been really good, not to mention the Santa letters i did for Stinky over the years... In that respect, i think i could possibly do something. We have a shop over here called Hobbycraft and it (obviously) sells all kinds of things and (you won't believe this) but earlier i was looking at the mosaic door numbers that were on there. They looked amazing. I'm going to spend sometime in their at the weekend and see what i think i could do...

BTW - Esty, love that website.

x
14/07/2011, 18:26
em said…
i think the posts comments say what i was going to say, try something crafty. if you dont like something dont give up find something else. hobbycraft has a wide selection of crafts to try. really does pass the time. tell us how it goes. x
14/07/2011, 20:29
Sarah♥ said…
I'll let you know once i have been and had a look around, something else might catch my eye...

:)

xxx
15/07/2011, 00:06
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