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I am so unhappy, it's like i am on a downward spiral (again).

I feel lonely and the last time i felt like this was when i was with my ex husband, i'd sit upstairs at night and he'd sit downstairs - 2 people, 2 different rooms. I would cry every night and every day.

I can't put into words how bad i am at the moment, how down i feel and how miserable i am.

I'm so tired. Completely worn out, with no more energy...

...and what is worse is that from this morning at 8am i'm on my own until Saturday morning. Seeing no one. Don't get me wrong, i'm not scared of having no one around, it's just that i don't talk to anyone and i have way too much time to think about things. Bad combination.

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vinny said…
Hi Sarah sorry u are feeling sooo depressed thats really not nice before christmas,i thought wiv ur boyfriend asking you to move in might have helped perk you up a little bit? even if you were not gonna move in just the thought of him saying that shows how much he cares for you.
soz ur alone over the next few days too,can you see ur mum or a neighbour or friend for a chat or coffee?i wish i could help and give u a big {{{{hug}}}} to make u feel better,u need to try and stay strong for urself and ur son if u can,why not pamper yourself and make urself all pretty for when u next see ur boyfriend,it cheers me up when ive done my hair and make-up all nice.
but sometimes we all get stuck in this rut and its horrid ggrrr want to help you xxx♥♥
25/11/2010, 16:57
Sarah♥ said…
Vinny..

The fact that my boyfriend has asked me to move in has worked in the total opposite way. It's made me realise i am not at all ready for any kind of commitment, how ironic????

I don't want to live with anyone and definitely not him. I know he's not a keeper, so there is really no point in wasting OUR time and delaying the inevitable.

I've told him a million times that moving in is not an option, so i think he's using reverse psychology and hoping it makes me think he cares, when he doesn't really and he also is fully aware, that i don't want to move anywhere, so there is no danger in me saying yes, that is why he asked me. He's a very clever man!

I don't have enough time to pamper - i'd need ££££££ and plastic surgery to make me feel any better about myself right now.

I am so pissed off... :(

Hope you're okay though lovely...

xxxxx
25/11/2010, 17:05
vinny said…
yes i'm ok thanks still trying to look on the bright side of life,its hard very hard but i'm trying to trying not to moan as much,feel like biting my tongue sometimes lol.
yes thats probably why he has asked you then cos if he knew already that u would never move in with him or away from ur own house for that matter then he knew u would say no but can still say he's done his bit,so yeah see where ur coming from now,i notice getting engaged or trying for a family or him moving in with you was not mentioned on his list cos he know's u will probably say yes to them or more chance of u saying yes anyway.
oh and i did not mean plastic surgery hun u don't need it ggrrr i'm gonna shout at you now UR REALLY PRETTY,TAP TAP ON THE SCREEN,R U LISTENING TO ME SARAH,UR STUNNING AND REALLY NEED TO BE TOLD MORE OFTEN,women out their would die to look like you or have a figure like urs,you might not think it but i for one would love to have ur petite figure.
i mean just put on some different make-up than usual,use different colours,do ur hair different use some tongs and make a wave in it for a change,then look in the mirror and say to urself 100 time over i am dead pretty,cut out a picture out of a magazine of a big fat ugly heffer with spots and all and stick it to ur mirror then compare the 2,there would be no contest,only trying to cheer u up lol,mite not be doin a very good job but want u to have a giggle anyway,i think the first vid i ever watched of u was trying black dresses on and u looked amazing,go out with a friend to a pub one night of u could ever manage that and see how many stares or chat up lines u would get from fella's cos i rekon u would get loads and it would boost ur self of steem,nite nite xx♥xx
25/11/2010, 23:42
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