Dilemma...
I don't know what to do... So confused with it all. I have just called the boyfriend after not speaking to him since 8 this morning (he's off sick) to see if he was okay and i got ANOTHER mouthful... WTF?? I simply cannot do this any more. I'm fed up, the only thing is that he's helped me so much with getting out, if i end the relationship, i'll be back to square one, on my own with no one. *Le Sigh*
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i don't want it to get in the way of her having a normal life or her or her friends noticing i'm weird,why can't mummy eat in front of us daddy? what do u tell a child? i shake a lot too,i didn't think it was that noticable but one day my nephew said to me WHY DO UR HANDS SHAKE SO MUCH?? i had to go out the room and cry cos i could't believe a 5 year old had noticed.i get to the point where i can't breath and just feel like faiting and running away and end up just coming home,i feel like i'm a drain on other peoples lives cos i can't do anything or go anywhere etc,but i had to have a baby one day as i love babies and i'm 33 in jan so would be getting too old,so i couldn't let my anxiety get in the way even though i think it will,this is why i'm so paniky about the birth cos i'm having stupid thoughts ;0( thanks for the reading it was good xx♥xx
Thank God, me being like this hasn't effected my boy in the slightest. He has still maintained a 'normal' social life, despite me being mental, the ONLY initial problem i would say is having to explain to his friends' parents why i can't pick him up, which i now find very easy because i don't give a shit what they think!!!!
Put it this way my lovely, when i was in hospital (taken in because of pre-eclampsia) i was panicking a lot by then, my poor first ex husband who was a life saver, slept outside the hospital in his car because he knew how terrified i was of being all that way from home. It was late October, freezing cold and he did that from Saturday - Tuesday. After i had him on Tuesday evening he was so exhausted he had to go home and sleep. I cried ALL night. They gave me a pill to chill me out, but it didn't work. Luckily, he was there at 8 in the morning to come to my rescue.
I don't think you'll be as bad as that. When labour starts, you don't panic...you don't have time to ;) You will be absolutely fine, i promise. :)