...now there's a shocker! I have spent the entire evening in hospital. We had to call an ambulance, these feelings in my heart were insane. I was sat in the back on the ambulance and they did all my obs. I was tachycardic, my BP was really high (usually its stupid low) and my ECG was showing Atrial fibrillation, meaning the top two chambers of my heart are beating faster than the bottom two. I was put on oxygen as well because my breathing was a little bit crappy. The medic man stuck a candular in my hand and hit a valve apparently, my hand swelled up in seconds, it was so painful. Got to the hospital and did all the necessary things and then we had to wait...and wait...and wait. Where they'd stuck that needle in the back of my hand and hit the valve, it started going dead. I couldn't feel 4 of my fingers! I called to get someone to take the bugger out. I'm left with a lovely bit blue bruise this morning. My step-father was called to pick us up because we thoug...
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Just remember that nobody's perfect if you were to spend as much time in a 'perfect' womans body you would find just as many flaws.
You told me that I was beautiful - I really wouldn't agree with you. I don't have boobs either, from my hips down to my ankles I'm covered in stretch marks, I have a big nose, horrible teeth, acne scars on my back & my chest (I pick too), there's far too much for me to list. All that along with my agoraphobia has prevented me from ever having a relationship. I honestly don't think you have anything to worry about with your boyfriend. He may like big boobs but at least yours won't be hanging by your knees in 10 years time! x
have u ever put weight on and do ur boobs grow a little with putting on weight as mine seem to,my fella says he loves my body and would hate it if i was too skinny as i have curves lol dunno how true that is but it makes me feel a little better,was it the headroom on the bbc website that u watched about bd with ruby wax who interviews people with different mental health issues?i think that was really wrong that ur fella saved that on his phone cos course its gonna piss you off,i would have had a fit if my fella had of done that too so i can understand where ur coming from.
can u do some sort of cbt for bd? how do you feel when you see bigger fatter women when out shopping,do you think they look pretty or do thy make you gag?cos i'm like 12-14 clothing size,i used to be an 8 when i was in my teens but i have just spread out sinse then lol.
i really wish i looked like you cos i see you as perfect looking at u on photos and on the video and stuff,you do look a little under weight but not too much just about perfect and i can understand why with the way you feel,wish i could help you,it must be horrid
{{big hugs}} luv vin x♥x
and u and ur fella are a nice couple xxxxxx
ALL MY FUCKING LIFE I HAVE BEEN TOLD BY VARIOUS PEOPLE HOW FUCKING UGLY I AM. SO I AM ONLY FAKING BDD TO GET COMPLIMENTS? HOW FUCKING SICK IN THE HEAD ARE YOU?
OMG - i am so angry.
I HATE myself. YOU OF ALL PEOPLE KNOW THAT. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I DESTEST MY BODY. So to say that is just so totally inapropriate and very very wrong.
You're lucky as you do have a man who loves you and who's commited to you, whereas, i don't, and that makes me worse.
The things i knew about my fella before we got together is that he likes the ladies, i knew that - and although i don't think he'll cheat on me, because he can remain monogamous, and has done - there's always that thing in the back of my mind. Having that picture on his phone meant nothing, apart from its a picture of a tit, no different to page 3!
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they are either just still a child or just a f*cked up adult that likes to get their kicks from hurting other people,so dont listen to them,you are very pretty and i would tell you that even if u didnt have bd,if i saw u in the street i would think aww she's pretty so dont get too down about this gobbey person as i for one am behind you all the way x♥x
That's just how i feel, how can he think i am attractive when i look nothing like them, nor like anyone he's been with before!
Most people who read Sarah's blog understand what she's going through, it helps them and they sympathise with her.
You were the one who said (on your blog)that you read for entertainment just like you would read about Lindsay Lohan - the difference being that Sarah's condition isn't self-inflicted. It's someting that she has to struggle to live with on a daily basis. So I really can't fathom why you would continue to read, especially when you've said that you dislike her, unless you were vindictive
What picture are you talking about that you sent to me?
What the hell have i said hurtful to gauge the reaction you've given me? To say that shit on your blog?? Making me about to be a fucking stalker? That is wrong Sarah.
I did a slide of us - yeah, because it does still fucking hurt. Hurts all the time. You make it out to for ME to be the one that started rows. Last year when my boyfriend and i split up you made me out to be a liar because i told you about Steveo and arsewipe emailing him, which wasn't a fucking lie. THEY BOTH DID IT. But you went craaaaazy and flipped out. WHEN I NEEDED A FRIEND! Who was there for me every-single-day though that? Shopping addict, Miss C and Steveo...thats who.
You've said the most hurtful things over the years Sarah, hit me when i've been at my lowest, more than once. And you know that's the truth!